I want you to be strong.
Strong enough to tell someone when they're hurting you, or someone else. Hopefully you will stand up for others who are weaker and can't do it on their own. I'll try to instill this in you, that everyone has a story and a background and to be slow to judge and quick to forgive. But it will be in your hands to live this way.
I want to let you know I'm not perfect either. No one is.
But you try and recover from faults. You TRY and be a better person and grow and learn and keep an open mind. I get scared sometimes I'll miss a lesson, or I'll behave in a way that will show you the opposite of what I want to instill. But that's what being human is. The fact that you notice things in yourself is what helps you grow, and to become a better human being. I'm still growing boys, and I hope I am until the day I die. There will never come a day where I say, ' I don't need to know anymore' or 'I know everything.' You never should either. Stay humble and remember the world has so much to teach you, and be open to it.
You will be afraid in life.
At some point you might feel less than someone. There might be a time where you feel unworthy, not good enough, just plain depressed. This is normal. What I want you to remember is that everyone feels this way sometimes. The important part is how you deal with it. Your character is the most important thing you have, because despite what you can afford, what career you hold, it is what defines you. How do you treat others when you're in pain? Everyone is going through a struggle we know nothing about. So just as I mentioned above how you might feel, keep in mind others might be feeling the same way.
Be kind. You'll never regret it.
It's easy in life to start to form a hardened shell. Especially when you're sensitive. It's easy to look at someone and say 'what's wrong with them' or 'they're weird, they're mean.' Try to keep your empathy, try to stay objective; you just never know the whole story.
All in all I want you to be true to yourself, while not letting your wishes and desires harm others. I want you to live a fulfilling life, that enriches the lives of others in some way. You have already changed my life, and I know you have so many more to touch. You made me grow up a bit. All I wanted was to sleep in, or watch the shows I used to watch, or paint or write. But you were a baby, and you needed me so. I cherish that you need me now so deeply. That first time I realized I couldn't do just what I wanted, when I wanted, it might've hurt a bit. But it made me a better person, and it made me happier. We go around thinking fulfilling only the things that WE want is the key to happiness. You have made me see that it's so much more than that. I'll have a time to do the things I want, when I want. My role now is enriched and my life is full. I will chase my dreams, while caring for you. Not care for you, while chasing my dreams. You, my babies, will always be the most important.
I love you boys, with all of my heart and soul. My world is so much better because you're in it. Always remember how special you are, and the power that you have to make the world a better place. Try to lead with love, and see the world out of that mindset. Keep a clear vision on what you want, and take little steps that will lead you there. You might get lost a time or two, but never despair. Those little detours add character.
Love you more than the whole, wide, world. ~ Mom
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